Jackie Vondross

  • Ore

    Hands down hands up, throw the dirt away

    Deep wide horizon swallows up the holy day

    Dig straight down a ways, last look at the light

    Whisper minerals, choices left or right

    And down and down and always down we ever go

    Full chase the hum to second sun deep down below

    To fall is faster, but for dirt and dirt I might 

    Let pulling angels pull me down to Lower Light

    But dirt (and dirt) and dirt & dirt are in the way

    So digging down (hands up hands down) I don’t delay

    I find things finding me, things found in down and down

    Things earthen old below the past below the ground

    Where beastly gods ate gold and shat it into mines

    I pass these coprolites, they’re shrines! how they shine!

    I yearn for all for more but reach the center core

    Now down is up I can’t go deeper anymore

    But just for fools is digging up into the floor

    No sun no spirits so much dirt to down explore

    But down is gone I up and up forevermore.


Jackie Vondross is a creative writing major at Portland State University and has had work published in the university’s journal Pathos. She’s a trans woman and her writing is informed by the years she spent homeless on the streets of Portland as a queer person as well as her recovery from addictions to heroin and meth.